Da Says

A 3-day Sleep, Non For Keeps

I had the longest sleep. And with that sleep, came the weirdest dream. There were hostels or was it a hotel, friends, lovers, siblings, cousins, mountain tops, long drive home, toilet stops, running water, janitors, bags, and back to the hostels, or was it a hotel, and a small car.

Then came part II. Long drives, families, parents, aunties, cousins, barbecues, chickens, water, holy water, swimming suits and Jeram Toi.

I told you, it was weird.

The Hangman's Knot

When we die, will we really dissolve into nothingness? Silence? Eternity of peace? Can something real just fade away like that? Will it merely take seconds, hours, days or never?

A subject so delicate, yet so beautiful. It makes me want to swim in the not-know-it-all-at-all. But the lump in my throat warns me constantly, of the danger that might be. It could be the ugliest thing, or perhaps just mundane, but there's no way to know.

Like there is no way to know how a soul can sit prettily and take ugly beatings from its surroundings. An overused question, a million years ago. "How can something so beautiful be surrounded by such ugliness." Perhaps, the ugly is seen as beauty in time, and the real beauty fades, slowly into nothingness.

Slowly, but not surely. There's no telling yet what awaits at the end of the journey. If beauty ever makes it.

There, a noose is ready, hanging on the ceiling.

But this time, it's for the ugly.

A Misleading Fairytale

When you picked me up with the Disney ride, I was already doubtful, as to how the evening will end. Don't get me wrong, I adore Mickey Mouse, used to have a favourite red t-shirt of it, worn it every where, heck it was on TV too, but 10 Mickeys and 20 Minnies in one car, is just scary. The dashboard lined with black and red fur did not help either. I held my breath until we arrived to our destination, thankfully it was only 5 minutes away.

Comfortably seated on the couch, I immediately order a cup of Hot Chocolate. I have been longing for that for quite awhile, only the one I got was not hot. At all. The waiter did ask me though, hot or cold. Fine, maybe there's a cold hot chocolate. But he forgot to mention warm. The one he served me was warm. Terribly warm going to cold. Lumpy, but delicious. Almost made me forget about anything else, until we decided to call it a night.

Back to the Minnie Mobile.

Well, I'm home now. Send my regards to your Minnie.

The Big One

"So you're saying that he's writing his memoir?"

"Yes Inspector."

"And your complaint is.."

"Don't you see it? He is purposely making me sick, to add on in his memoir! Drama!"

"That's a bit far fetched don't you think?"

"Well, he is a writer."

"And you?"

"I write as well."

"You've been reading recently?"

"Yes, of course. Why do you ask?"

"Ma'am, I'd like to advice you to avoid reading mysteries. At least until you're feeling better." With that I saw him glance towards my current read, The Big Four from Agatha Christie's collection, on the table.

"You think I'm making this up?"

"Well.."

"You think I'm crazy don't you?!"

"Sorry Ma'am, I have to go now. Duty calls."

Limitless

I've been trying to write in here for a long while now. The empty box mocks me for taking too long to even hit a letter on the keyboard. "What are you going to write about now? How are you going to start? Owh, hitting an "I" are we. Are you sure you want to start with that?" It's been 10 days. 10 grueling days. Since my last post.

Now that I'm wide awake at 5 am in the morning, with nothing to read or write about (work obviously), I find myself feeling like a blank piece of paper. I have forced myself to rest today, but only managed to start at 10pm, and now I feel great. But also very empty. Could it be that I have busied myself with work so much that I did not realize that I am growing hollow?

And feeling quite nonchalant about that scares me. What am I turning into? Someone told me that I have lost that twinkle in my eyes, are they really gone? Maybe I'm turning into a big old bore, and I refuse to blame the age. I think it comes with the choices that I've made so far. Obviously, I chose to be one!

Oh, I need more partners in crime. We'll have such great adventures! Do email me to apply!